You would think, with all the time and pain and life that you cost that i would still be so stuck on you i can’t think…after praying for the spirit ties to be broken, and what is mine to be returned to me, this is not the case. although i do dream of you-there is not the urgency to save you. there is not the urgency to keep you from harm or help you solve that mess you have gotten into this time. Now the question i ask is, “Why”. “Why joseph-why did you see me only as a target?” for someone who readily admitted no one has ever loved you the was i did, no one has ever believed in you, thought the best of you, held on to hope in you…i just dont understand.